hi, it’s been a while.

Life’s been good recently, i’ve been to every lesson for three weeks and i get paid on friday. i’m pretty sure i know what to get laur for christmas now (which is a secret because she reads this and i don’t trust any of you bastards), and she’ll love it, i think. we saw 30 days of night in the end, by the way, and it wasn’t very good.

recently i’ve been appreciating my friends a lot, as well as documentaries, and how good animal crossing for DS is. i really must get one.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Films_based_on_video_games

^^^^ i found this cool wikipedia page with a list of movies based on games. there’s a few there that i didn’t know were in production and i must say i’m quite excited for. i saw the trailer for the Hitman movie at the cinema and i imagine it’s really good (or really average, either way i think i’ll enjoy it).

american mcgee’s alice seems like a cool idea for a film, i’ve never played the game but it looks good, and lauren likes it too. i’m looking forward to it. City of heroes will be incredible if the casting’s good, and it doesn’t take itself seriously. i’m hoping for something like The Mystery Men, because i love that movie. the devil may cry movie will be fucking sweet as long as someone awesome plays Dante, or it’s completely CGI (which i think i would prefer).

Everquest, i’m not too excited about. i love epic medieval fantasy but the everquest universe has always seemed kind of lame. something about it screams low-budget to me, but it’ll probably be funny to watch, at least. gears of war and god of war would both be amazing, if they get the budget and cast they deserve.

metal gear solid, of course i’m especially excited about- i’m a rabid mgs fanboy, i love the series, and i can’t see them messing it up. hideo kojima wouldn’t allow anything to be released that wasn’t top-quality.

onimusha would be badass, as would prince of persia. although there’s a lot of chance of them being messed up. i’m trying to think who’ll play the prince of persia, and the only thing popping into my head is viggo mortensen for some reason. he looks the part, at least.

Silent Hill 2 i’m looking forward to, i love the games and the film was good too. i enjoyed it, at least. it’s a different director though but that doesn’t bother me too much.

i used to live and breathe soul calibur, so naturally i’m very very excited about the movie. as long as it’s not too actiony and has a lot of story (though the chances of that being true are slim).

Warcraft is probably what I’m most excited about. i absolutely love the setting and story, and the fact that it’s live action is a good thing, in my opinion. yes, we did all love the fmv sequences in warcraft III, especially when grom hellscream and thrall fought mannoroth, but i think live action would be perfect. the tauren should look sweet. i hope it focuses on the grunt troops (though i doubt it will) and is as epic as lord of the rings.

one thing though- the sims movie. wtf! that’s just weird, and i hope it never gets made.

i’ll update again soonish because i’ve got work in a bit.

chet x

firstly, http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/england/beds/bucks/herts/7092381.stm

this made me feel really sick. she kills an 11 month old baby, pleads not guilty and then gets found guilty- and she only gets jailed for three years? you don’t shake a baby!

i saw a horrendous example of parenting the other night at work. this guy was walking around with his kid, looking for stuff- and the little boy (who must have been about 6) picked up a loaf of bread. the guy then shouted “PUT IT DOWN” and i mean fully SHOUTED as loud as he could, so that the whole store could hear. every time the kid did anything- walked a couple of meters away to look at something, went to touch something, he just got shouted at. and it was a pretty big guy too, i would have been terrified. he was maybe in his late 30s? some people shouldn’t be allowed to have kids.

anyhow, my apologies for not updating for a few days. not that anyone reads this, anyway. i just haven’t had a lot to write about i guess.

i went to the doctor’s the other day. my sleep improved over the weekend but it’s decided to be shit again. they didn’t give me any meds or anything because it’s ‘just a phase’ and they’re ‘reluctant to give sleeping pills to people as young as me’. they’ve confirmed that it’s stress related though, which is weird.

i’ve been to every single lesson for  seven days of college now. this feels good. i’m getting (some) work done and my parents like me a little more now, too. hopefully i can keep this up- even after this week, when the bet finishes.

recently i’ve been playing a lot of half-life 2 (over and over again). it really is the best first person shooter of all time. i want to play episodes one and two now…i might get the orange box sometime. i want to play guild wars again but i’m finding it hard to get into, even now that everyone else is playing.

does anyone know where i can watch series one, episode 3 of LOST online? i watched the first two last night and they were really good (i’d never seen any of it before in my life and didn’t really know what it was about), and i’d like to see the rest. i had a link last night but my divx wasn’t working on the pc i was, and now the link seems to be down. if anyone could help that’d be great.

on saturday, i’m going to town with my girlfriend and we’re going to watch a movie. i don’t know which one though! we’ve narrowed it down to these three, and can’t decide:

stardust
pros- seems less ACTION ACTION
cons- biggest chance of being gay

30 days of night
pros- it’s 30 days of fucking night
cons- said to be not very good (but that might be a good thing? i dunno)

beowulf
pros- angelina jolie’s boobs, 3d
cons- no nipples

to be honest i’ll probably enjoy whatever we see but we’re both crap at decision making and i really don’t know what to choose. so if anyone that knows anything about movies could help then that’d be good too.

earlier on tonight i watched Louis and The Nazis, which was really good. i love documentaries and i really really like louis theroux. i’d definitely recomend it.

i’m listening to head automatica. i love that sort of dance-rock kind of thing. i wish i could dress in lots of shirts and stuff and look like i’m in that sort of band. i want some skinnyish straight leg pinstripe trousers that fit really well, and a blazer jacket thing. and a sweatervest for some reason but that’s because i want to look like the guy from revenge of the nerds. with a little bow tie and everything.

-chet

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today was weird, i was in a good mood but then my mum called me up. apparently my college tutor’s phoned her and he’s pissed off with me because of my shitty attendance. i don’t blame him. thing is, i’ve been to all my lessons this week and i’m going to go to them all from now on. doesn’t stop everyone being pissed off.

and then after college, lauren (my girlfriend) decided to get some stuff for a party tomorrow in town, so laur, ash (a friend of mine), jen (lauren’s best friend), liam (lauren’s ex boy friend- but it’s not weird because they’re still friends), and i got the bus into town. i felt kind of ill on the bus ride and i had a headache and i think laur got pissed off with me because i wasn’t talking to her. she chose to sit next to me though. which was nice.

once we got into town we walked around for a bit before i went to work and i started arguing with lauren over something stupid, and i got really pissed off and walked off and just went to work. i felt really hideous at work and i didn’t want to be angry any more but i couldn’t help it. but i phoned lauren when i got home and she seems alright.

but i still feel like a dick because i think it came off like i was pissed off that liam was there. i wasn’t; he’s laur’s friend and i don’t see him as anything different. admittedly i was kind of intimidated by him maybe a month ago- the guy’s pretty much better than me in every way and laur seems to have a really good time when she’s around him, but i’ve gotten over that. i decided i was just being a dick and i’m not going to think about that any more. i do a little when laur kind of talks to him and sort of forgets me for a minute but that’s just me being a knob. i’m jealous, i guess. but not any more. but i still feel like i came off like a complete twat so i’m going to email liam or something and apologise. not quite sure what i’ll be apologizing for but it can’t hurt to.

i slept for about four hours last night, it was good. hopefully i can beat that tonight.

today i decided i hate the idea of people talking about me without me knowing. i know it happens all the time but i think i’m really worried aout what people think of me and i don’t want them to be saying bad things. that’s insecurity, i think. or something else, i’m not sure.

keeping a blog is a good idea. it allows me to organise my thoughts. and this will be fun to look over in a year’s time, probably. the wordpress community seems nice too.

-chet x

i’ve decided not to write a post introducing myself, as such. i don’t really want to try and explain my entire life and personality within a few paragraphs, stuff like that always seems kind of contrived. i suppose whatever information there is to know about me will emerge as i post here. i’m going to try and update every few days at least, maybe every day if i get the time.

i’ve been having trouble sleeping recently. a couple of hours every night if i’m very lucky. and it’s not for lack of trying- i’ll lie there for hours, tired as hell, and sleep just doesn’t come. i went to the pharmacist in the village where my college is and they reckon it’s due to stress or something. i’ve nothing to be stressed about though. i’m going to see my doctor anyway to see if i can get prescribed anything proper. for the moment i’ve got some tablets called ‘kalms’ which i doubt do anything- but i’m taking them anyway, just in case.

i feel shit too, i dont’ know why but i just generally feel lethargic and apathetic. my friends have all been saying i look depressed or whatever but i don’t really want to talk to them about it- if i can’t figure out what’s wrong with me then they won’t be able to and i’ll just end up getting frustrated with them because they’ll keep trying to ask me questions and help me. i don’t want to get angry with my friends, i know they’re only trying to help me because they care about me but i dunno. i’ll mention it to my doctor i guess. maybe i can get prescribed something cool, but i know they’re always reluctant to prescribe mood elevators or whatever. talking about it should help though, i dunno.

the weird thing is i really don’t know why i feel shit! everything’s good in my life. i have a job now, i’m earning money and i can go out sometimes and do things. i’ve got a girlfriend, and she’s great and she loves me (which is pretty damn awesome now that i think about it). i have the most amazing set of friends, i’m not doing particularly bad at college or anything. admittedly life isn’t great at home, i don’t really get on with my parents- but when have i ever? and who does, for that matter? i’m seventeen, it’s probably just late moodswings from puberty or something stupid. some days i’ll feel really good, be in a really good mood. but then i just sort of crash. i don’t get it.

i wish i was in a band. i love being on stage, i like performing to an audience. my friend chris and i have been trying to get something started for so so long now but it’s hard to find committed members that are both willing and have got the skill to back it up. i don’t even care what kind of music we play as long as i can have fun playing some shows. that’s my favourite part of being in a band. the thought that those people in the crowd are there to see you really can’t be beaten.

i’m nearly 18. that’ll be good. not just being able to buy alcohol, i know that’s the main thing people look forward to but i don’t really drink much. to be honest that’ll probably change but i don’t really want it to because i turn into some kind of bastard when i’m drunk. either that or become really philosophical. i’m looking forward to being 18 because i’ll be an adult. maybe my parents will treat me a little better. i’ll start learning to drive, too. i want to learn really quickly. the freedom that comes with driving will be amazing.

i want a tattoo, but i don’t know what. i’m too indecisive. every idea i come up with just loses appeal really quickly. i know i need to commit and just decide on something but it’s hard. it’ll probably be easier after my first one, but at the moment having to choose a piece of artwork to get permenantly put onto my skin is a pretty big thing to me. i don’t really care too much about meaning. i just like the idea of decorating my body, for aesthetic purposes rather than anything else. although a meaning would be nice, i’m not too bothered about it. the meaning will come with the tattoos i guess. just reminding me of whatever point in my life i got them i suppose. all i know is i want one nerdy tattoo somewhere on me eventually, and one tattoo to commemorate my cat who died a couple of months ago. he was my pet for 11 years or something, and i think when something’s shown you absolutely unconditional love for that long then it’s worth doing something in it’s memory.

that’s it for the first post, i guess. expect more to come!

-chet x